Live and let live

This is something Jake does better than I am. I'm consistently a bundle of nerves freaking out about my future. I feel like I'm still trying to find my place in the world and I'm not sure if I've found my calling or not. I just know that whenever I make changes, I end up back at the same place I started because the changes I make--the ones I hope would make everything better end up making things worse.

Jake on the other hand isn't worried. He's settled on what he wants to do and who he wants to be. I wish I could have that assurance in myself. He has his future mapped out pretty well. He's not anxious about it at all. He's pretty confident. Thankfully he doesn't have the same restlessness I do. He chalks it up to the military for giving him time to decide and really think about things, and for the GI bill for allowing him to try out his dream (of flying helicopters for a living) and then realizing it wasn't exactly what he thought it was.

I just feel like I've tried a billion things on for size and nothing's fit. I'm in something I'm more passionate about than I have been about anything else but I don't know if its for the right reasons. I try to just live and let live, but I just get wrapped up in myself.

Maybe I should have taken some time off before grad school. Who knows.